Commuter Series #3: Sunrise Blues
- Aubrie & Barry
- Apr 2, 2016
- 2 min read
Right now my commute to and from work is about an hour to an hour and a half. So in just one week, I travel about 7 and a half hours just for a paycheck. In those 7 and a half hours, I have noticed something - especially on my morning commute. Not one person looks happy. Think about it. The next time you are driving to work, just take a glance at all of your fellow commuters. It could be that most people are sleepy. Part of me thinks that. But the other part - the part that is tired of being tired. The part that is doing mental acrobatics to figure out how to get through the work day. The part that knows there has to be more to life than an endless commute for a terrible paycheck. That part knows not everyone is just sleepy on the highway at 6 AM.
The other day, I left for work a little earlier than usual, and about halfway through my commute I realized that I was being chased by the sunrise. In my rear-view mirror, the sky was splashed with dusky reds and
vibrant oranges with streaks of yellow. Ahead of me, it was a beautiful shade of lilac. It was so beautiful. It felt like a secret moment between myself and mother nature.
Excuse me for being cheesy, but it really felt like a metaphor for this “in between” time in my life. Behind me was the familiar - the known. In the light of day, I can clearly identify where I’m going. I can quickly look at my surroundings, at my choices, and I can pretty much predict the course of my life. But ahead is still in shadows. I can sort of make out the outlines of what is ahead, but not really. Not definitively. And that is what scares most people. That is what scares me. The unknown. Sometimes it scares me so much, I freeze. Not willing to turn back to the routine, but too unsure to risk it for the uncharted.
I know I don’t want to end up like my fellow commuters. But it doesn’t need to come to that. At least not yet. I need to remind myself to live in the lilac. Live in the moment that the universe gave me. I’ll worry about the rest later.
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